over look on life

Today as I was typing in my journal for lil' man (I try to write everyday to him), I read back at the start of the journal. It amazes me how many memories and great stories we have made with our Lil' E. Our many ups and downs, The love we have grown for him, how much different he has become. I love that I've kept a journal of our booger butt. I actually would love to make a mini book in the future of it for him. I didn't start it till the end of August, so I'm so glad I wrote in this as well. My lil buddy is really something. 


I can't believe how much he's changed in these past short months. He's grown so much, it kinda breaks my heart. He's never gonna be lil' like this. Ever. Ever again. Even though a lot of the first few months are extremely hard, it has made me appreciate lil' man. I know I'm gonna look back and miss it. Especially when he doesn't wanna give me a kiss or a hug anymore. I'll look back and see how much he needed me at one point. How he ONLY wanted mommy and no one else and miss it. If I could give new parents one piece of advice I'd tell them to soak in every moment of those first two month, cuz they fly. Fly by way too fast. And put on every piece of clothing you have of theirs. Dress them a million times cuz those clothes are gonna be outgrown quickly. Take a million pix of you with the baby. I didn't get that. Which kills me. I wish I had MORE pix of me and Lil' man together. Stare at them when they are soundly asleep in your arms cuz soon they'll just want their comfy bed and not your arms anymore to sleep on. Enjoy the fact that aren't so mobile :) That everything they do is solely cuz of you. Cuz really it flies by. 


I can't believe Lil' man is gonna be six months in nine days from today :( NO! Of course I'm really loving this stage. His teeth have popped thru, he's starting to try and crawl, he's my hungry, hungry hippo and loves food, he's becoming so independent, but if I could relive a few of those days when we first brought him home, I would. His newborn smell. His tiny feetsies. That lopsided head :) How he'd fall asleep anywhere! I mean anywhere! Just the whole newness of it.


Lastly, though I'd tell new parents that from that point on, your love for that baby will NEVER be LESS! It will continue and at times will be so overwhelming that you can't hold back the tears.


Mama loves ya E!