If only...

Time could stop and Eli could stay this Lil forever. I love this age and he's so darn funny. I'm absolutely obsessed with my son and ain't ashamed to admit it :)

Happy thursday 

what's been up...

So much I can't even begin. Well we have discovered our sweet lil' pudding' pies skin is very sensitive. Especially to diapers. I have tried every single brand out there and there is only one that fits and holds in everything. So we have as in me :) have decided to to switch to cloth. I realize it's gonna take some time to get used too, but I can deal with that. What I can't deal with is my son crying when I take his diaper off because the simple air hurts his skin. I'm actually pretty excited. There are so many cute diaper covers and I know in the long run his poor lil' skin will finally be relived of the pain. 

I also have started up Insanity. I can't seem to get these last 10-15 lbs off and it's killing me. So I went full out and me and Moi are eating like the healthiest freaks out there. I just hope this works. My weight has been fluctuating on off 3-4 lbs, not sure what's going on with that. But any who, I feel amazing. Of course not during the workout, but after I feel so awake. It's crazy how that all works out.

This past weekend the Comic con came to town. So ya knows what that means. We didn't go. But because our beloved Walking Dead was in this years line up they had a walking dead run at the Petco Park. Moi was so enthused for it, but I was just like what ev. Once we got there though was a whole different story. It felt like the real thing. We were dodging Zombies and running. Boy were we running.  Moi even sprained his lil' thumb for it. Overall it was total success and I'm so glad I didn't flake out. We had so much fun. And talking about fun, I also finally gave into shooting. I did it. It scared the living crap out of me, but I did it. And it turned out to be fun. Can ya believe it. Two things I would probably have never done if Moi didn't push me to do them. But I'm so glad I did.

Noticing...

I'm all about reading...


Well when it comes to Eli. I wanna know my son. I don't wanna be one of those mothers that look back and say I should have done this...Even though I know those moments will come up, I want the important ones to be discarded. Never even mentioned because it didn't happen. I know my mother did her absolute best raising me and my brothers and sisters, but I know there are so many things I wanna do different with my lil' man. 


Discipline. Punishment. What's the different well, there is an extreme difference. And just a few days ago to my knowledge it was all the same. But I realized punishment is external. Only a temporary compliance. Confusing the child. Discipline is applied with the understanding of what is happening and why. And well, I will never believe in spanking, but with a child like mine, I was determined to find another form of discipline. But I was lost. Eli has a horrid temper. I mean out of this world temper.  What do I do with a child when timeouts (also learned this is punishment and NOT discipline), then tried break times don't work. I'd sit and tell him to calm down and wait until he's done. But that only worked a few times. So I came across this article, regarding the time you spend with a child, their reactions to it. I know I spend ALL day with Eli we play, eat, and well we are each others lil' buddies. But what I took into account was when I gave Eli my attention. How long it took until he would just break down and start screaming, or try hitting me. (yes, he already hits). So today I took a different approach. I didn't go onto my FB for my photography once, nor did I lose sight of him. If I was gonna go into the kitchen I'd tell him to follow. The first moment he'd sign please I'd respond. And we spent quality time. We colored, played A LOT and guess what only maybe two outbursts. Compare this to yesterday and that is a HUGE difference. I realized that I was not spending enough quality time with him. And I think I'm a darn good mama. But I wasn't giving Eli the attention he was seeking. Now all children differ in what they need, but Eli needs me more than I thought. I learned he gets scared when he can't see me. And gets frustrated when I ignore him. (you'd think this is obvious) He loves play time with mama even if it is just chasing each other. I saw a different side of my son and gosh am I happy. My lil' guy is happy. And that is all that matters. I know I will always have new possible faults in my form of being Eli's role model, but I know I'll figure them out as I go and will never stop in teaching him. I won't just be that mother that says, I tried my best, I will be that mother that says I never gave up. 

Baby Pie is 14 months...

I can't believe it's already been 2 months since my baby pie had his 1st birthday. It literally feels, like he's a totally different child. His personality is in full force and his face has changed so much. Well at least to me. And I think since he has been walking he just seems like such a lil' toddler now. 


I'm just so amazed by my lil' dude. His heart is bigger than the world, but his temper is that of fury :)
He's getting so tall, and almost all of his teeth are in. Poor bud. Lately he's been a clingy lil' thing. It's mama, mama, mama all day till' daddy gets home. So I get a nice lil' break. He is totally obsessed with dogs or animals for that matter. He will give any dog he can get his chubby arms on a hug. And I do worry because all doggies aren't like ours. So we gotta start working on him with not giving dogs hugs. But this kid, is my world. Through, rough, easy, stressful days I love this kid. I'm totally in love with him and I know Moi is too.

Going good... SO far

So with my photography just recently starting, I'm in amazement how much great feedback I'm receiving. I really do love what I do and I guess it shows. But I have to share some of my work. So I can go back and look at how far I've come (even though I feel like I'm doing good)-->wink, wink. But honestly I learn something new. A new pose. A new way to work. I love how my work challenges me and I love how I have my me time. It gives Moi time with Eli. So all in all, it's a win, win.