Im already seeing what a child does to a relationship

....So I can't wait to meet my lil' man, but I can see what a child does to a relationship and I see it now and it makes me SAD :(


I think cuz me n moi weren't expecting our lil bundle (we were actually preparing to wed in Jan) we weren't prepared for him and it def. caught us off guard, so we are working to give him the BEST life we can give our Lil' Eli and with that comes sacrifices that we are dealing with right now. Moi is doing double shifts till lil man comes so I can give birth @ Mary Birch and with my fav Dr. (Dr. Daneshmand) and once he comes he is going down to 3-4 days at the clinic and night shifts @ Scripps, but with Fri. and Sat off! I just don't know if I can do this any more...I miss him so much and I'm starting to see the mean part of him that I have never seen before (even all six yrs of being together) It really breaks my heart cuz I know he is doing this for us, but I wish he didn't have too cuz I see him exhausted and he is always lashing out at me, the Moi I have never seen. It also makes me sad, cuz he doesn't talk to lil' man much cuz he comes home tired, eats and heads to bed. I hope Eli nows his voice, but Im scared he won't :( that really makes me SAD 

So much...

Gosh, time is flying and so much has happened....I had my baby shower on sat., then on sunday we had to send our family dog to doggy heaven, my niece cedes left early Monday back to her dads and my 2 bros ended up leaving later to their new jobs in san fran and now it seems like lil' man is gonna come anytime now. Last night I went into triage with contractions happening every 3 mins. and now I'm 1 cm, but of course they sent me home cuz I'm not that dilated and the contractions aren't really painful, so until they become painful or my water breaks it's just a waiting game!!....so now I just gotta relax, relax and that is so hard for me. We still need to get Lil' mans bassinet, carseat/stroller and his monitors...and we haven't even packed our hospital bag...I just hope he waits till Im 37 wks...only 2 more wks so I hope lil man can hold out till then cuz I would hate for him to go to NICU. Oh and on top of that we need to get our house in order...Im going CRAZY here...!! Well thats my week so far and tomorrow I need to go in to do a Non Stress Test to check on our lil booger butt>>>man this lil guy has given mama LOTS of trouble!! I just cant wait to see him, but when the time is RIGHT which is not now...2 more weeks lil man...just 2 more weeks

Here are a few pics of his nursery/baby shower (my wonderful mama helped me with the decor)

Heres my baby shower (elvis themed)

Moi is really gonna be a daddy...

I LOVE seeing Moi FINALLY excited about our Lil Eli. When we first found out we were pregnant I of course was shocked (due to the fact we never thought we could have lil munchkins), but afterwards I wanted to go straight to the store to get our lil bundle of joy something, but Moi was very stand offish. It really hurt my feelings. He works at a high risk prenatal clinic, so he is constantly being reminded of all the horrible possibilities that could happen with our lil guy, plus I had a blood clot in my uterus as well as a lower placenta which can cause me to lose our sweet boy. I understood his feelings, but I still wanted him to be in it with me and I felt a little lonely, until now. I LOVE seeing him bringing home books for Eli, or going in to peek in his nursery. He Loves this song that plays on the frog we got for Eli and it lights up the whole room and he plays it every time we go in his room. It makes the nervousness and anxiety I have about having the baby all disappear...Only 7 more weeks till we see our Wittle man>>I can't wait!! I can't believe how fast time is flying...Moi is gonna be a daddy really soon and an amazing one at that!! I def. gotta post some pics of Lil' Mans room it's absolutely adorable and I feel like I actually contributed to it since I couldn't do really anything like painting or climbing the ladder...(I painted 3 pics for above his changing table)

So weird...

So last nite I had the weirdest dream (yes I know you get them when your prego), but all day this dream stuck with me. It was about GOD and going back to church, but something stuck with me about it. Im not sure what but something. So I just got a ring at my door and of course my doggies go crazy. I picked up my little doggie Nahla and slightly opened the door just peeking my face through. It was some guy who said he was doing a fundraiser. He was really enthusiastic and so upbeat, but I told him I had no money or anything and that I was sorry, but he insisted on continuing to talk to me (and of course Im to nice to say anything), so as he's reaching into his back pocket (me not really paying much attention) my big dog Max whose a german shepherd pokes his big ol' head in between my legs. It was the weirdest thing, the guy's whole demeanor changed and he never took out what he was going to out of his pocket. He looked at max and started to stutter and said never mind, never mind and never regained eye contact with me like he had been the whole time and just walked away. I got the weirdest vibe though from him at that moment. It was kinda creepy, so who knows what that guy had in his pocket, but whatever it was Max stopped him from pulling it out. Im alone a lot during the day and many of our neighbors know it's just my husband and me, so that kinda got me thinking, but I mite be over analyzing things. It just gave me "That Feeling"

Today...

I went and got my maternity pics done by my cuzins bf. He did such an amazing job and he has only been doing it for a while..he showed me some proofs n they look so beauty~full. Originally I didn't wanna tell Moi cuz he thought with our new camera he could take them, plus he didn't wanna spend the extra money, but his schedule is so busy and I don't think we would have gotten the shots we did today with Ian (the photographer), and then I thought they would be such a cute present for him before the baby comes. Now Im even more excited to see the edited ones! It was horrible though, the park I had wanted it at was all gross (I hadn't been there for a while and I liked the pond there) so we ended up heading downtown San Diego, which was such a better idea, but I got lost like a million times and the GPS on my phone is a piece of crap, so a trip that should have taken 15 mins tops, took like 45!! Ugh that is so annoying, well we ended up still getting good shots so I was happy! I loved my outfit I got at H & M it was simple but so cute and I brought some props and so did my cuz! Hopefully they come fast cuz I am a very anxious person!!

4 LBS 5 OZ

Yup thats how much my lil booger weighs right now...I got to finally get a glimpse of what he looks like under ultrasound (that lil booger has covered his face everytime I mean everytime we have had his ultrasound) He has chunky cheeks and I LOVE every lil roll on him from his toes to his non existing knuckles!! ;)


So its official the nursery is DONE>>>we got the ottoman in for his rocking chair...well we do need to put up his name but other than that it is done I promise! I can't believe I'm going on 33 wks this thurs., where has time went...?!?! But at the same time Im counting down the time we meet our sweet boy, I still gotta get his viacord kit for his cord blood which I am going to order rite about now. So onto birth plans, I plan to go all natural, but am gonna stay OPEN MINDED in case I NEED the epideral for any reason!! I do plan to have both my momma n love in the room with me and have my momma make my gown for the hospital...yes I really do! The ones they got are huge and not like Im not huge at this moment but Im a very lil person...i think my belly is a wide as i am tall ;) Wish me luck the next few weeks...My legs no longer look like legs instead like lil sausages and I think I possibly I saw a tiny stretch mark>>AHHH!!! Already in my eighth month and Im just getting them NOOO!!! Hopefully I can get some rest in before our chunker munker comes cuz lately I am doing overtime on my body! Well  off to ordering the viacord kit!!

My sweet lil angel...

So I was online of course babycenter.com and they suggested to write your lil unborn child a letter..so here it goes my sweet Lil' Man


...Well my angel, mommy is very emotional and just writing this I get emotional. I can't believe how MUCH I LOVE YOU and your not even here...!! I already miss you and haven't even held you in my arms, I can't imagine that moment when I hear your screaming cry and I know you daddy is SO EXCITED to meet you too. You are so blessed with such an amazing daddy. I can't even describe him to you because he truly is beyond that, but I will try!


~One of mommies favorite features of daddy is that he is so driven, I hope you get that from him. He's actually been mommies inspiration in life.
~He never gets embarrassed with showing mommy LOVE in public and he is always loving up on mommy and you when he comes home from work, like he's been gone for years and hadn't seen us!
~He takes all worries away from mommy so I can be stress free and grow you nice and big and takes on all the pressure of making sure everything is covered!
~He spoils mommy like crazy (but that's our secret) and he's already starting to spoil you..
~I know he's gonna be the BEST Role model and daddy for you, you are gonna grow up to be such a wonderful man and I can't wait to see how amazing of a man you grow up to be, but don't grow up to fast 
( PLEZE)  
~He worked so hard on your nursery, mommy just stood and watched and he never once complained...


These are just a few things of why your daddy is such a great, amazing man....

 God definitely blessed your mommy with an amazing man to be her partner in life and be the father of her children! My sweet boy, I am actually painting your pictures for your room and I hope you like them as much as mommy does...your nursery came out amazing you are gonna LOVE IT!! Well my belly is definitely growing which is a good sign (we know you are growing nice and healthy in there, like you sister Chunty Munty) This last month, I have seem to stumble across stories of pregnant women or women who have had children and they really effect mommy so much, you see son one is about a girl who just had her son and he has heart defects and the others are mommies like me, but they lost their children. It makes mommy realize what a miracle you really are to us, though we have had a few scares you always pull through and Im so grateful for you! Im so grateful to daddy too cuz he is the reason I can stay home with you, all day, every day! He works his lil tail off, so momma can see all your wonderful moments and tape them so when he gets home, he can see our lil man growing up! You are my blessing and I love feeling your amazing kicks because I know your doing your lil roasting! I hope one day you see how MUCH momma and papa LOVE YOU! Well handsome, I gotta go finish your painting, just gave you a rub good nite on my belly, sleep tight and in just 2 short months my dreams will all come true once I hold your little body in my arms, but until pleze NO more scares ( can you spare your momma) I love you son,


xoxo
Your mommy

This is a pic of one of your first nursery items a rocking Lion...Your daddy LOVEz it cuz it roars

Can't sleep...

I keep saying well at least im preparing myself for the sleepless nites when our Lil' E comes, but I know its not good to be up so late especially prego mego..! Its just so hard, Moi is working nites now and I have the worst time going to sleep I toss and turn or start freakin myself out, like I think I hear things and then of course my doggies start barking so that officially freaks me out. Well ne who, I know I SHOULD NOT be climbing ladders, but I just wanna finish our Lil' E's room so I DID>>>and I ended up putting up the decal I got, and put it above his closet. It TOOK forever, supposably the decal sticks straight onto the wall...NOT...It was a saying so I had to rub each letter on the wall and my poor lil fingers ( I totally got midget fingers) are a lil blistery...OUCHY!! It came out so CUTE...Me n Moi never thought we could have lil munchkins so when we found out we were prego we told each other that God def. has a plan for him, he will do GREAT things, so I found the perfect saying "Let him sleep for when he wakes he will move mountains" it just fits our lil guy perfectly! Of course Monster Max made sure I did it rite and stayed in the room with me the whole time...I LOVE my doggies! Oh did I mention our booger has hair...we were wondering if he was gonna be born with hair or not cuz I had a full head of hair and Moi was a baldy...guess he's gonna a lot from his mommy ;) Tomorrow, well actually today since its almost 2 in the morning, I wanna start on his name and put up his curtains...can't wait to post pics!

  

heres a pic of the decal...LOVE IT

What a day...

So last nite I went in to triage @ Mary Birch after having horrible cramps in my lower abdomen. Me n Moi went to Costco and they got so bad I had to finally give Moi the red light that we had to go in. This whole time I was texting my Doctor, Dr. Daneshmand (he is truly the best doctor) He gave me his cell number in case I ever have problems, so it def. helped to text him and of course he said to come rite on in. I was praying please don't let this be labor, it felt like kidney stones (I've had them 4 times), but I wasn't sure, all I knew was this isn't rite. So I get into triage and of course have to go through all the basics (peeing in a cup, asnwering a stupid questionnaire if Moi beats me, not joke)-->and all i wanted to do was lay down. Finally I get to the back and get hooked up to the monitors and yup something is def. going on. I had sugar in my urine and the monitor was showing some contractions, so they decide to give me a shot to stop the contractions, it def. helped but man I felt like I was on speed, my heart was beating like crazy and I felt all trembly~but all that mattered was my Lil' man was okay and of course he was having a lil party in my belly. Whenever I get hooked up to the monitors he goes crazy with his kicks and movement! Finally I see Dr. D and he gets everything checked out, earlier I had to do some testing to see if I could possibly go into labor in the next few weeks and thank GOD those tests results came back negative. So off to mi casa I go with Moi (poor Moi he has been working like crazy and this day was his only day to get a nap in and we are here)...Then this morning I had to go back in to the office to do a Non Stress Test...I was showing some sort of uterine irritability but No contractions (thank GOD)...So now I just gotta take it easy and relax....well at least I can start on the things for the baby shower!

Baby, Baby, Baby...

Yup...that's all that's been on my mind to my doctor appointments to Elijahs baby shower to his nursery!! I keep saying ok Mireya you still got 2 months, but it just feels like time is flying by so quick and I need MORE TIME >> please!! So today at my docs app. I found out I am somewhat anemic which means more pills to pop (haha that doesn't sound right), but at least I didn't gain a butt load of weight. Yup just in the last 2 moths I gained most of my weight so now I gotta kinda slow the weight gain train down..!!


I still need to finish up Lil' man's nursery too...but so far it is coming out gorgeous, plus his material for his curtains just came in so we can get started on it!! I love going into his room and just standing in his doorway. I can't wait to meet my angel, I'm so in love with him. It's the craziest feeling, sometimes when Im alone and I think about Eli I just start to cry... not out of sadness, but out of Love and joy and how I would Do anything for him...Him and Moi ( and of course our brats) are my life...my life with out them is unimaginable!!

I love this picture...!!