tooth number 3

Yup, poor lil buddy's 3rd tooth is coming in. Its the top this time. But he still pulled through today and went shopping with me for two full hours, tired and managed to keep that handsome lil' smile on his face. He was grinning at EVERY SINGLE WOMEN we encountered. He is sucha crack up. I love it though. I love showing off my happy lil' baby. 


Oh and yesterday, we signed him up for his first class. Gymboree Learn and Play. This kid has been dying for some baby interaction. And boy am I glad I put him in. He loved it. He met a boy a day younger then him and was just so excited to say hi. He was touching him. Pulling on his clothes. I actually had to tell Eli to be easy cuz it was so exciting for him. I was so proud of my baby. Even though the other two babies in the class could crawl, he was trying so hard to copy them. And I was just such a proud mommy to watch my boy flourish. I was so proud to see him so excited and interacting. Playing and being a lil' boy instead of a baby as we all see him. He really is becoming a lil' boy and I love it. I'm getting to the part when I'm not dying that he's growing up. This class is gonna help me see that. I realized it will help me let go and let him become a lil' individual. 

Getting the word out there...

I've always been an EXTREME dog lover. And many years ago I was faced with the reality that many dogs are being over breed and resulting in a huge money making business. It's recently surfaced about the reality of puppy mills. Mills that have hundreds and hundreds of dogs of all breeds. The owners only see one thing, money. Their care for the animals is absolutely astonishing. The poor dogs have only wired cages, that they live in. With barely any room to move in and cramped quarters due to over crowding in the cages. Dirty water, no vet care, no warmth, no human reaction. Nothing. These poor lil' creatures don't even know how to walk on the floor. How can any human be so cruel?! I have slowly started getting involved with this horrible industry in hopes to STOP these cold hearted, evil, individuals from gaining anymore money from the cruelty they invest in. Please spread the word and STOP buying puppies from pet stores. Support in adopting. The animals posted in the video are the parents of those "cute" puppies you see in the malls, or cute lil' pet shops. But what you don't know is their parents are suffering in cramped cages. Left in snow, rain, hard winds with no beds, or shelter to protect them. Please ADOPT!


http://vimeo.com/34043371 

Changed hearts

A softer heart!


That exactly what Eli has done to Moi. Me, I've always been kinda push over. If anything, Eli has helped me speak up for myself. But with Moi, he really has touched him. A great example is my sisters baby. I decided to ask Moi about checking out my sisters baby last week, wasn't sure about his reaction, but he was so cool about it. I was so shocked how he responded to me. He amazes me everyday. Moi has truly changed, and for the best. But to say it's ALL Moi would be a lie. It truly is Eli's sweet spirit that has touched Moi. Eli is such an angel. He is Moi's BEST blessing with out a doubt. I was never sure if Moi would ever change his views on some things and I had become ok with it. I love that crazy man, so I learned to live with it. I kinda just ignored that part of him. But yesterday I saw a side of Moi that made my heart just melt. It gave me the biggest smile on my face. 


So, yesterday I called my sister up after Moi had texted me about my sisters gender ultrasound. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the text. I had to read it twice to make sure it was real. I remember mentioning it to Moi, but wasn't really sure if he was on board. And I didn't wanna be a bother to him about such a touchy subject. (There have been a few issues with my sister and her hubby and us.) Wish it wasn't like that, but again, we gotta work on it. So you can imagine how I felt when Moi was all up for doing my sisters ultrasound. She was pretty excited and to be honest I was too. She's hoping to find the gender out before her hubby takes off. He's in the military :( Any who, my sister came by, so she could follow us to the hospital, but Eli was sleeping so I had to stay behind, NO FUN! They were hoping to see if he could see the gender, but unfortunately he didn't wanna give a 100% on what he "thinks" might be the babies gender. He has an idea, but didn't wanna say yes, and then No. So we are gonna wait till' the babes is a week older and check again next week. I'm actually pretty excited. Moi gave in, even though I told him NOT to and told me what he thinks the gender of the baby is. I wonder. If it is what he thinks it is, aww man I'm gonna die. But we'll have to wait and see. 


Well, after Moi did her ultrasound he calls me. I was kinda nervous to answer, but I did. And his voice was amazingly happy. Happy?! "So I told your sister if she needs anything, even if it's during the night I told her to call me." Yeah that was one of the first sentences he said. Who was this that I was talking too. And why was he so upbeat. Wait, what?! I was a lil' baffled, but so relieved that he was so cool about this whole thing. You see Moi has a HUGE soft spot for babies. His spot, as I call it, didn't really soften till' Lil' man came into his world. Into ours. I can't believe it, even though our Lil' man was def. a shock, I would never take him back. I feel Eli was meant to be in our lives, at this moment for the moments that we would have done differently. See earlier in my posts, I wrote that this baby was meant for something. I wasn't sure yet what it was, but there was a reason God gave them this baby. Maybe this baby will break that awkward feeling we all have. Maybe, he or she is our lil' ice breaker. Our lil' light of fire. Who knows, maybe he or she is meant to really bring ALL of us together. 

Only a week away

Well these past two weeks just seemed to have flown by. Moi took them off for the holidays. I loved having my family together. I got to get some cuddling in and man do I miss just having Moi sleeping next to me. I miss his scent. Yes, I have this obsession with Moi's cologne. He's worn the same one since we first met, so when I get that whiff, I go walking down memory lane. Any who, Moi's night shift is from 10pm-7am and I get a lil' lonely. Ok, a lot lonely. The second week we spent it up in Big Bear. We never miss our annual trip to Big Bear. Especially during the snow season. Moi would make sure of that. He is my mountain man. I know if it weren't for me and Lil' man, he'd be up in the mountains, separated from the world. We are so opposite. Sometimes I can't believe how opposite we are from each other. We def. define the words polar opposites. Well, we managed to drive 2.5 hrs. with our baby, a butt load of luggage and our three dogs. Yup. We really do love our dogs obsessively. They all did so good, well meaning the pups. Eli was so upset when he woke up and we were driving up the mountain. He was screaming I think the whole way up, which if I can recall is about 45 mins. I went and sat next to him, but he was just so upset. I love that angry Lil' Elf. :) 


It was absolutely beauty~full! It snowed a few times and we even went out on a lil' stroll in the snow while it was falling. People were looking at us, like we were crazy, but we loved it. Eli passed out in his carrier, so he was nice and cozy. And goodness, I think I have another Moi on my hands. Eli LOVES the outdoors. He loved playing in the snow. Even with his fingers frozen (I put gloves on him, but the snow still got through them.) Of course the dogs loved every bit of the snow. Except Nugget. She just chilled inside the nice warm cabin and watched us. That goofy lil' thing. We got really lucky. Moi works with a guy who owns a cabin in Big Bear, so we got to rent it out for nothing. And this place is huge. Being up there made me wanna just have Christmas up there. I really hope we can pull it off next year. I'd love to have Christmas there next year. I so wish it would snow in San Diego. I didn't wanna leave. It was a lil' peace of heaven. San Diego weather has been nice and gloomy which is always a plus for me. I can't believe Christmas is just a week away. Breaks my heart. :( NO!!!!

My big 7 month old...

Yes, those are my exact words out of my mouth. And how it saddens me. I don't think your daddy really understands how I feel. To me you'll never, ever be 7 months again. To him he can't wait to take you fishing, climbing and just a lil' toddler. But I'm just not ready to even think of you that old right now. Thinking that five months from now you'll be enjoying your 1st birthday kills me. Those thoughts are still a blur to me cuz I don't wanna think that one day you really will be that big. 


But it's here. Another month just flew by. But I gotta admit, I'm more in love with this you more than ever. Not a minute passes, when I don't think of you.


Well bubba love,


I don't know how I've manage to still bf you. You are sucha lil' oinker. Still eating every two hours. And now you are officially on solids. You are doing so much better at eating whole foods. You love to chew apples. I don't really measure out your food when you feed yourself cuz you kinda just play with it. Which is fine with me. I know you'll eat if your hungry. But when I do feed you, you eat around 3-4 oz of food. 

You are so ready to crawl. SO so close buddy. You got it down, all we need is for that first movement. It's all on you now Mr. Chunkers. We are waiting!!


You can sit all by yourself. No help needed. You can even pick yourself up if you fall over a lil. You are my lil' rollie pollie. You are impossible to change now cuz all you wanna do is roll over on your belly. Me and daddy just laugh at you.


Your in between sizes of clothes. Wearing between 12-18 months. You are officially wearing 18 month pants but the shirts are still a lil big.

Your personality is one in a million. Honestly, I gotta say, God did good with picking out your personality. I love it. You are so theatrical. Always, Always making faces. And lately you grunt for everything.

 You are somewhat trying to talk, but not quite there yet. You're not such a angry lil' elf. I'm teaching you sign language and that has helped so much. You don't get so frustrated.


You still have stranger anxiety. I've learned I gotta hold you for a while when ever someone comes close and then you need to interact with them before handing you off to them. But you are still a big time flirt. I mean big time flirt. All the ladies love talking to you cuz you have the biggest grin on your face.


You love, love to blow bubbles. Whether it's on my leg, cheek, arm or just out of your lil' mouth. You can go for a good few 3-4 mins non stop. 


You aren't sleeping through the night. You wake up at 12 and 5. I'm guessing you are growing. You nap twice a day.


You are such a boys boy. You love sports. You are not a TV kid, but when it comes to football, that always catches your attention. I think I found my football buddy. Daddy doesn't really like it.


You love to be on your belly now that you have mastered the roll over and can move around with your arms.


Well bubba lou, that's my new nickname for you this month. Or as I call it flavor of the month. I somehow always come up with the most random nicknames for you that last a month and then I come up with a new one. Daddy always catches on too and starts to call you them too. :) The one that has stuck is giant sea turtle, that's papa's for you and the ones from me are Mr. Chunkers, chunty boy and Ewi. 


So Ewi, I don't know what to really type. I mean really. My hands are so lost of words of what to type. Cuz honestly, no amount of words, no feeling can describe my unimaginable love for you. It's really that. Unimaginable. The moment I leave you, my heart yearns for your warmth and my arms yearn for you to fill them. My eyes yearn to see you. My ears yearn to hear your laugh. My nose yearns to smell you. My hands yearn to touch your skin. My cheeks yearn for your cheek. My soul is so deprived of you. And that will never end. I love you bubba. I love you so much!

I enjoy this boy more and more

And how couldn't I.

He is seriously full of faces all day long.

I'm so deeply in love, that it doesn't feel real.

I love being a mommy to a lil' boy. 

To this adorable lil' boy!

And check out the pic I did for our Christmas cards this year.

The caption above them read,

"Santa we can explain!"

I thought it was perfect!

Even though it literally was the most challenging thing.

Our big dog, Max was just NOT having it. And Eli managed to sneak the cookies

that were really just as props, but I think it looks so cute.

I just wanted them all in the pic, so I was determined to get one shot. 

I got some really good laughs out of it too :)

I can do it

And I did. 


I went to my sisters house. Happy. Excited to see her lil bump. Ready to hear how my Lil' Cedes took the news. Along with my big santa bag of clothes for her. Me and Lil' man stayed quite a while and it was so nice. We talked and just could relate. I gave her some advice on all the "new" things they have out now. Something came over me the moment she told me she told Cedes. I guess like, it was ok. I was ok. Cedes was ok. And then when I saw Cedes on the computer screen my heart melted. How I miss her cuteness. Just her. I could have hugged her through the screen if it was possible. Eli just watched her. I loved seeing him so mesmerized by her goofiness on the screen. My sister's choices mite not be what I would do, but not everyone makes the same choices. And I'm getting to the ok part of that. My sister isn't a bad person. We as humans make bad decisions and choices in life. But why be punished for it forever. I love her. And even though I might have felt like she wasn't there for me for my pregnancy, I will be here for hers. That's just me. I'm not gonna stop being that person cuz of certain feelings. 

Our Visit to the boys

So dumb I booked our flight to San Fran instead of Sacramento, so we ended up driving from the San Fran airport to Davis. It wasn't too bad, I mean the flight and ride there, but the whole process to get the car, to go through the airport, that was a whole process within itself. Literally! I never realized how spoiled we are in San Diego. The airport in San Fran was the airport from Hell. Ok, so I usually would never say that, but this truly was the worst thought out airport. Who puts the luggage claim on the third floor, when you depart on the second and ride the monerail to get the rentals on the first floor. So yes, we took three seperate floors and let me tell you flying with a baby is something that takes skill :) Thank goodness for my madre, if it weren't for her I think I would have ripped out my hair. Carrying a baby along with his ginormous car seat, diaper bag, playpen, carry on, my luggage and his luggage was a challenge beyond challenges. So with all that said, our flight was also delayed an hour. So our trip that should have only been 3-4 hours took 7. But we made it. The boys got to see lil' man, which was the whole reason for the trip, so it was a success. I'm so glad they saw him. They only saw him when Lil' man was just weeks old, so seeing him so big and so interactive was so cute to watch. I miss them so much too. I really love when our family is all together. I hope we can start planning a trip once a year to all get together.