And I did.
I went to my sisters house. Happy. Excited to see her lil bump. Ready to hear how my Lil' Cedes took the news. Along with my big santa bag of clothes for her. Me and Lil' man stayed quite a while and it was so nice. We talked and just could relate. I gave her some advice on all the "new" things they have out now. Something came over me the moment she told me she told Cedes. I guess like, it was ok. I was ok. Cedes was ok. And then when I saw Cedes on the computer screen my heart melted. How I miss her cuteness. Just her. I could have hugged her through the screen if it was possible. Eli just watched her. I loved seeing him so mesmerized by her goofiness on the screen. My sister's choices mite not be what I would do, but not everyone makes the same choices. And I'm getting to the ok part of that. My sister isn't a bad person. We as humans make bad decisions and choices in life. But why be punished for it forever. I love her. And even though I might have felt like she wasn't there for me for my pregnancy, I will be here for hers. That's just me. I'm not gonna stop being that person cuz of certain feelings.
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