Im already seeing what a child does to a relationship

....So I can't wait to meet my lil' man, but I can see what a child does to a relationship and I see it now and it makes me SAD :(


I think cuz me n moi weren't expecting our lil bundle (we were actually preparing to wed in Jan) we weren't prepared for him and it def. caught us off guard, so we are working to give him the BEST life we can give our Lil' Eli and with that comes sacrifices that we are dealing with right now. Moi is doing double shifts till lil man comes so I can give birth @ Mary Birch and with my fav Dr. (Dr. Daneshmand) and once he comes he is going down to 3-4 days at the clinic and night shifts @ Scripps, but with Fri. and Sat off! I just don't know if I can do this any more...I miss him so much and I'm starting to see the mean part of him that I have never seen before (even all six yrs of being together) It really breaks my heart cuz I know he is doing this for us, but I wish he didn't have too cuz I see him exhausted and he is always lashing out at me, the Moi I have never seen. It also makes me sad, cuz he doesn't talk to lil' man much cuz he comes home tired, eats and heads to bed. I hope Eli nows his voice, but Im scared he won't :( that really makes me SAD