True LOVE

I am so amazed how much I am so IN LOVE with Eli. His smile captures my heart and his giggly scream melts my soul to the core. Gosh, I love that boy. That little chubs, that knows no better in life, than to depend on mommy and daddy to live. The Little fair skinned boy, with pouty lips and tiny bald spots who was put specifically in MY Life...HOW LUCKY AM I?! 


I realized God hand picked him especially for me, to hold, to love, to treasure, to devote and commit my life too. I feel so blessed, how lucky I am to have been chosen as Eli's mama from God! He trusts me enough to be his sole provider and protector...WOW, that's a lot of responsibility that God trusts me with, so I must have done something right to deserve such an amazing gift, as Elijah, but to be completely honest I don't know what I did right to deserve this amazing, handsome little boy. I love Eli more than any lame sentence or famous quote can describe. All I know is that I will be the best mommy I can be to him, love him with ALL the LOVE my heart can release and support him in life. I look back at our life before our sweet boy and it was beyond childish and full of selfishness. Now it's so much more! It's a life of purpose, selflessness, love, and a chance to somehow make up for everything I did wrong in my past, he's my second chance in life. I hope one day Eli realizes HOW MUCH I truly LOVE him! 


Look at that adorable smile...!! Thank you God for it, for him!! How could I not stop thanking the Lord for him!

He's absolutely PERFECT!! I could NOT ask for anything more...but why ME>? He's TOO perfect... I sure hope I don't disappoint you, Lord! Please help me, watch me, show me, guide me to do the right things and be the absolutely BEST parent to Elijah.

Be by my side if I do mess up...

Whatever God has planned for my AMAZING, Gorgeous little love, I know he'll always be with him, even when I'm not...I am just thankful I get this, the now, the present..I don't worry about the future because I'm taking it all in one day at a time and when tomorrow comes I will cherish it that much MORE!