Reality Check..

Last nite I got a good reality check.


I used to be a self absorbed, self proclaimed diva as some would call me, your typical selfish twenty-four year old. I really didn't care about anyone, but myself, even though I "thought" I did. I was living in a world that only had me living in it. You would never really think I came from a family of five. 


But last nite when I was talking to my mom and sister, I was slapped in the face with the old me. :( I don't like the old me. The words I was saying weren't me, well the me now. I can get caught up with things and have a lil' anxiety, so when I went a lil' off on them, they reminded me I needed to check myself. I quickly composed myself and caught that I was being such a brat. A big baby, really only thinking about myself and how busy I was. But it's good to have a family that grounds me. We all composed ourselves and slowly quieted our voices and went over what we "ALL" meant. I was being a lil' over dramatic and needed that. Yes, I went off on them especially my sister, but came to realize they were just trying to let me know how ridiculous I sounded. After all it was all over a stupid phone call I needed to make. But I wanted to make my point. We all do it. We all think we are rite. That we aren't in the wrong doing. We rarely look back and think were we wrong? If anything we continue to convince ourselves all the rite points we forgot to point out. But I think that was the difference last nite. I stopped and came to the realization that it was me. Why did I have to dig so deep to prove that I was to busy to make a stupid phone call. But I guess this is what's called, "Growing Up." You actually take a step back and realize how stupid you sound. I sounded so dumb. Really selfish. Really immature and straight up bratty. 


But I think we all need our families to help remind us who we are. Who we don't wanna become. A family doesn't lie to you. Families are the ones to tell you when your wrong when no one else will. I'm thankful for my family. I'm thankful that I'm no longer that person, even though at times she can slip out. But I think everyone has their moments. It's just recognizing it and fixing it before it let's out its wrath.