Over and over. He is my absolute life. Before Eli entered my life I was destined to become a singer. I loved singing. All the time. I still sing. But I now know that wasn't meant to be my life. I know I was meant to be Eli's mommy. Rite now. Rite this moment. Not a few years down the road. Cuz to be honest he is my driving force in life. Yes I wanted to sing. But I wasn't motivated. Not until my sweet lil' love entered my life. And now I can't see leaving Eli, even if hypothetically I were to become the most famous singer, I can't be away more than a few hours away from my booger. I don't know how people who travel all the time from home could be away so long from their child or children for that matter. My priorities definitely changed the moment I fell in love with Eli. So when I thought, hey I should try singing again, my thoughts shifted. Wait, I have a baby. I'll be away from him. And a lot. It became clear that I was not willing to put being a mother to Eli aside to full fill my dream I once had. My dream was no longer singing. It was and is Eli.
So as my inspiration and motivation began to grow, so did my love for photography. Moi surprised me with a new lens and I promised myself that I was gonna go for it. It was a new year. This year is my year. And honestly I can't tell you how happy I am. I needed this outlet. I'm constantly doing research. How to improve my skills. Signing up for classes. Just absorbing all that I can about photography. Don't get me wrong, there is so MUCH I need to learn, but I'm ready to test out my skills. So on the Internet I went. Ordering and ordering and ordering :) My goal is to start up a small traveling studio. My main focus is on newborn photography along with family photo. I wasn't into the whole engagement/wedding. But again, Eli is my motivation. He really is the reason I am doing this. I am so thankful that God put him in my life. I have such an amazing feeling about this year. I can't wait to tell Moi to finally quit call. That'll be the day. And I know it isn't too far away. I just know it. A child really adds that extra spark in your life, that once was so far away. That light that was just barley flickering is now blazing. And all thanks to my lil' man. My bubba lou. Gosh how did I live without him. He is my life. And I'll continue to say that. Thanks my sweet angel love for helping mommy grow. Helping me see my potential and still having the chance to be the "Bestest mommy" to you.
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