Today we said Good Bye

To a man who I truly only knew for a few good months. The circumstances were not of the best, but I'm so glad I got to meet the loving, caring, goofy  grandfather that some of my cousins already knew of. 


He went in for a perforated intestine and with his diagnosis came along a long list of possibilities. Possibilities that many of my tias weren't ready to face. Death. 


Death is something no one really wants to face, even when it's staring at you in the eyes. 


But that's really what it came down too. With my tata's kemo it was a challenge.


So we sat and waited. Waited to get back hopeful results of what we all so wanted to be. We were praying and hoping the surgery would go smoothly and soon our Tata would be waking up. But instead it took a turn for the worse. His blood pressure severely dropped and that was it. They needed to stop the surgery as soon as possible or he could have lost his battle right then and there on the gurney. While our whole family poured into the waiting room and by the word "pour" I mean took every seat in the waiting room. We actually were asked to moved becuz we were just taking up to much space and no other families were able to wait. So as we waited minute after minute, hour after hour it became clear that he wasn't improving. Our hopes of finishing up the surgery were slowly dimishing and we knew his meet with Jesus was closer each passing moment. 


I woke up this morning of day 3 and just hearing my mommy's voice, I felt desperation. I could sense her once hopeful deamenor was now just that of a sad daughter losing her father. "They are letting him go today!" That was really her only words. I knew the first day he went in for emergency surgery. I sat with my sister and told her, I know he's not gonna make it. Again my senses kicked in, when I wished they wouldn't have, but I guess in a way it prepares me more. We all said our good-bye's and were ready to let him go see our Nana. Finally he could see his true love once again and that was what was keeping everyone as ease. Knowing he wasn't gonna be alone anymore. I feel that my tata's condition has been pretty bad for awhile, but he was tired. He was ready to go. He was over living this life of pain. We all watched as he took his last breathes. He had most of ALL his grandchildren and children surrounding him with love and prayer. But let me tell ya he went with a fight. I think the most touching part was when our tia from Oregon finally arrived to see him, minutes later he passed. As if he was waiting for her. To finally see his daughter, who he hadn't seen in years. His kids were all together and he was at peace. It was so peaceful. He now has a Valentines date with someone who he's been waiting to see for over thirty years. You can't get a better Vday present than that if you ask me!