He's ALL I need

Growing up in a family of five, I thought, heck I'm gonna have a huge family too. 


I loved having brothers and sisters, but it's so different when you grow up and actually have a child.


I did. And now all I want and need is my son. My boy Eli. 


My mom would Always tell me, that the love for your own child is beyond words. It's something that can't be explained or even believable because it is truly that amazing. Being pregnant I couldn't wait for that kind of love. But my mom was right, even pregnant I thought I loved Elijah the way my mom expressed it to me. But I was wrong.


Nine months ago my love was so new for Eli.  These past months, I can't believe it hasn't even been a year yet, but I have deeply fallen so much in love with this lil' boy that it is what my mom said, "It's unexplainable!" My life no longer exists without Eli's name in it.


It's so crazy to think that when you fall in love with your spouse, you two have to get to know each other. Date. See if this person can be someone you really can spend everyday with. As a couple you face challenges together, being a strain on your relationship. Making you face what the future might hold as a couple. But with your child you don't get to know them, you don't know who they will be or how they will act. You know absolutely nothing, but this child still grasps a part of your heart that you never knew existed until you had that child. And that's why it's called unconditional love. 


I'm not gonna lie. I wanted a lil' girl and when I found out that I was having a boy, I was a lil' disappointed. More for the fact that I really thought it was a girl. But that all faded when I had Eli. Eli is such a perfect fit for me and Moi, I couldn't imagine another baby filling in that spot. And now ALL I want is Eli. I don't really care if we never have a girl. In the beginning after having Eli, I still had in my mind that I wanted a lil' girl. But now with time passing, it's clear that Eli fills that void I thought I once had. His hugs and kisses are more than anything in this world. He's my treasure. And to be completely honest if I never had another child, I would not be regretful for it. Because Eli is ALL I WILL EVER NEED!!!