Have you ever thought what if?!

Today me and Moi were talking about his brother and gf who are pregnant.


And it came over me, that if I had medical insurance we would have never gotten married. No, we weren't your, I'm getting married becauze I'm prego kinda deal. We were actually four months away from our Big Wedding Day and were absolutely surprised when we found out Lil' E was only six weeks old, in my belly that is, at the time. We got married early becauze I didn't have medical and I wanted the BEST doctor out there. And by the way I did. A doctor who gives you his actual cell number is the number UNO doctor in my books. 


Well, as I was telling him that, Moi, with a cracker in his mouth, looks over and replies with a sorta look. Yeah, that's true. We would have probably just been finishing planning our wedding for this year. 


But see everything happens for a reason. I realized that with our marriage, me and Moi made the ultimate commitment. We promised to God and ourselves that we were gonna go all the way and work hard, even when we felt like we were doomed. You see, I am the typical kinda girl that runs when things get hard. I hate to face what many of us call life. Yes, especially with relationships I never gave it my all. I never thought of any reason too. I mean I was young and thought I didn't need to prove myself to any guy and if he didn't like it, oh well! But a marriage surpasses that whole, girlfriend, boyfriend, playing games kinda of relationship. I think if Me and Moi hadn't gotten married, Eli would have probably spent many nights at my moms. I probably would have just left. Not even allowed myself to give me and Moi's relationship a second thought. When it got hard, and boy did it get hard, I would have packed up me and Eli and hit the road with my mom on the other line. Eli wouldn't have had a stable life and I would have been an awful mess. As well as Moi. So, even though we got married for the insurance, we really got married to keep us together, but at the time didn't know it. Not having insurance was a blessing in disguise and was my reason to stay and work, work HARD at our commitment. A marriage isn't just signing a paper, it is the ultimate gift you are giving to your partner. The ultimate promise to those who you are confessing in front of, and of course our Lord. It gave me my reason to stay and keep my family together.