Anxiety...

No more like pure fear. 

I love singing. plain and simple. I love it. But what I don't love is what comes with it. That first moment of anticipation to sing. Waiting. The anxiety that fills my mind and starts to play tricks on me, as if I had forgotten the lyrics, when in reality I hadn't. But then I start going over in my mind, did I forget them. And I start singing it and start over thinking it. Then the sweat sets in and I'm a mess. Yes, this is how it goes every single time the first time I sing anywhere. Once that first moment is over, I can relax and I could go up a million more times, less stressed and more excited than ever to sing. But I need to learn to get over the sheer terror that I have. If people will like it. If I'll remember it fully. If I'll get the nerves. If my stage presence is good enough. So tonight I'm gonna lean on good Ol' God for this. I really need to leave ALL my worry with him. And just practice. Cuz if I practice I know that is the best I can do and really what is worrying going to do other than make me break out more and well make me freak out on stage. So from now on. No more. I'm leaving it with God. And that's that :)