Almost a year..

Yes.


Those are the words I'm typing.


My once single digit lb boy is now eleven months and I have no clue how we got here so fast. Don't get me wrong, I love this stage. He has replaced the tv as our entertainment. He is just something else. So full of life. But that's it, you see!! This simple lil' life. So innocent. So full of love. He's just living for now. No worries the next day. And he knows mommy and daddy will full fill every need possible. And if that doesn't happen he'll make sure he states his feelings. But I guess knowing that each day that he grows, grows him closer to my lil' boy that will be waving bye to me at the curbside of Kindergarten. Coming home with lil' crushes on girls. Forgetting to give me a kiss because he's rushing to see his friends. Or just those simple looks he gives me. As if he knows he's my world. Because I know they are coming and I'm not in any rush for that period in his life to happen. 


I still can't comprehend that my baby boy will be one soon. In less than three simple short weeks. It hits me harder and harder as I'm planning his first birthday party. I know that he'll become an amazing young boy, but I'm hoping for that boy to stay my lil' man for a lil' while longer. As as each year passes so will time. It will fly by quicker each year and that all is just to much for me. I never thought I would be so sad to see him grow. I guess the whole factor that I have been so blessed to stay home with him is just another reason why I'm grasping onto any lose ends of his baby stage. I've seen it all and it still isn't enough. I want more and longer. 


So as I close,
I know that my wish isn't reality. I know that Eli will be walking soon, (very soon) and I know that he's only four years till' he hits that BIG milestone my heart just wants to skip. But what I can do is truly treasure every waking moment I have with him. With every breath I inhale as he's engulfed in my arms I will capture that image in my mind because I know it won't last forever. I honestly don't know how I existed with out my sweet boy.